messy day and load work yang super banyak
tikam dada banyak kali
Friday, February 17, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
aku
aku.
aku adalah aku.
aku tidak tinggi, namun tidak kurus,
aku tidak putih, dan tidak hitam jua.
aku selalu tertanya,
kehidupan aku tidak slalu indah,
tidak seperti teman-teman yang menarik perjalanan ceritanya,
apakah kekurangan ku?
tidak unik kah aku,
tidak ramah kah aku,
tidak setiakah aku?
namun,
ceritanya tetap sama,
mereka datang dan pergi,
di ingat kadang kala,
dan di lupa bila tiada berita.
aku cuba jadi orang yang berbeda,
ku ingin jadi kreatif, maka ku lukiskan panorama indah,
malangnya, tiada seni garisan yg ku cipta,
ku ingin jadi puitis, maka ku karangkan puisi indah,
namun, tiada kehidupan disebalik kata-kata yang ku cipta,
maka aku tertanya,
mungkin tuhan telah cipta aku sebigini rupa,
yang punyai makna sendiri dan seni ku sendiri,
yang tak perlu di tawan oleh alam semesta,
cukup di lingkungan radius ku sendiri.
aku syukur pada tuhan mu,
kau temukan ku dengan si penjaga,
yang ada dan memegang tangan kecil tatkala ku hilang raja keluarga,
yang ada tatkala aku hilang arah tujunya,
kau benarkan dia hadir,
di simpan kemas air mata ku,
di peluk erat segala duka ku,
di ceritakan indah bulatnya dunia,
dan di suluhkan lampu kecil buat ku kembali ke pangkal jalan.
terima kasih ya tuhan,
aku bersyukur pada mu.
aku benar bahagia.
aku adalah aku.
aku tidak tinggi, namun tidak kurus,
aku tidak putih, dan tidak hitam jua.
aku selalu tertanya,
kehidupan aku tidak slalu indah,
tidak seperti teman-teman yang menarik perjalanan ceritanya,
apakah kekurangan ku?
tidak unik kah aku,
tidak ramah kah aku,
tidak setiakah aku?
namun,
ceritanya tetap sama,
mereka datang dan pergi,
di ingat kadang kala,
dan di lupa bila tiada berita.
aku cuba jadi orang yang berbeda,
ku ingin jadi kreatif, maka ku lukiskan panorama indah,
malangnya, tiada seni garisan yg ku cipta,
ku ingin jadi puitis, maka ku karangkan puisi indah,
namun, tiada kehidupan disebalik kata-kata yang ku cipta,
maka aku tertanya,
mungkin tuhan telah cipta aku sebigini rupa,
yang punyai makna sendiri dan seni ku sendiri,
yang tak perlu di tawan oleh alam semesta,
cukup di lingkungan radius ku sendiri.
aku syukur pada tuhan mu,
kau temukan ku dengan si penjaga,
yang ada dan memegang tangan kecil tatkala ku hilang raja keluarga,
yang ada tatkala aku hilang arah tujunya,
kau benarkan dia hadir,
di simpan kemas air mata ku,
di peluk erat segala duka ku,
di ceritakan indah bulatnya dunia,
dan di suluhkan lampu kecil buat ku kembali ke pangkal jalan.
terima kasih ya tuhan,
aku bersyukur pada mu.
aku benar bahagia.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
laser tonsilitis day 1
Today is my third day at Tropicana Medical Centre after i had a minor surgery on Friday at about 8.30am. It was quite nervous for me as the last time i had my last surgery was 13 years back at Damansara Specialist. Went here on Friday with my love mama and my love fiancee, ali at about 6.30am. Waited until 8.00 am and they start to transfer me to Operation Theater.
Mama and Ali was advised to wait upstairs as they were told that the procedure will take about 2 - 2.5 hours. Laying alone on the hospital bed really scares me off. Cant stop praying and hoping that everything will turn up fine. The anesthetic doctor came and explain that she will put me too sleep once i'm in the theater. All i could remember that she could not find the vain as she mention my vain is to small. i think 2 times she tried to 'cucuk' me and the final time i totally doze off.
the next thing i know, i woke up and feeling damn nausea. i was so thirsty and sleepy and dizzy. i ask the nurse what is the time now and she said it was nearly 3pm. i just couldn't care less as i was very nausea. i think they brought me back to the room and i can hear my love and family voices. Dr. Bala who did the surgery came in and explain to my family that the procedure took 4hours as my tonsil was too big and need time to shrink. he did bring along 3 specimen which was my left and right tonsil and the small bones that was remove from my nose.
the operation night i got trouble sleeping. need to rely on sleeping pills as it was so discomforting. pitty my love as he need to go back to singapore for qurban. he waited for me at the hospital till morning. blood keep dripping from the dressing and i think on the first night the nurses need to change my dressing more than 7 times as the blood is to full
tbc...
Mama and Ali was advised to wait upstairs as they were told that the procedure will take about 2 - 2.5 hours. Laying alone on the hospital bed really scares me off. Cant stop praying and hoping that everything will turn up fine. The anesthetic doctor came and explain that she will put me too sleep once i'm in the theater. All i could remember that she could not find the vain as she mention my vain is to small. i think 2 times she tried to 'cucuk' me and the final time i totally doze off.
the next thing i know, i woke up and feeling damn nausea. i was so thirsty and sleepy and dizzy. i ask the nurse what is the time now and she said it was nearly 3pm. i just couldn't care less as i was very nausea. i think they brought me back to the room and i can hear my love and family voices. Dr. Bala who did the surgery came in and explain to my family that the procedure took 4hours as my tonsil was too big and need time to shrink. he did bring along 3 specimen which was my left and right tonsil and the small bones that was remove from my nose.
the operation night i got trouble sleeping. need to rely on sleeping pills as it was so discomforting. pitty my love as he need to go back to singapore for qurban. he waited for me at the hospital till morning. blood keep dripping from the dressing and i think on the first night the nurses need to change my dressing more than 7 times as the blood is to full
tbc...